If you always feel not enough
practice abundance mindset
I Don’t Have Time. I Don’t Have Money. I Don’t Feel Capable…
These messages have been echoing in my head for so long. And one day, after reading something that struck me deep, I just said:
Fk it. I’m done. I want to make a change. I want to be a rich bitch.
First, I set an intention. I wrote it out and taped it to my wall.
Abundant Mindset Exercises
Second, I started practicing abundant mindset exercises — a lot of them.
You might think, Yeah, yeah, gratitude makes you feel better when you’re broke.
But no — the real reason I focused on abundance was to empower myself to make changes. Big changes.
I know this is weird. But underneath scarcity — underneath the fear of not having enough — lies something deeper: a devil called inconfidence. And now, I’m smashing it.
The old voice said:
I don’t have money, so I can’t spend on X, Y, Z.
I have to stay in this job because switching is hard, visas are expensive, the market’s bad, and I’m not good enough.
Now, you’re like the hero in an action movie, not a tragedy film. You’re not standing there crying about the fire — you’re running through it, dodging bullets, figuring it out as you go.
You’re not waiting to be "ready." You become ready by moving.
And when you see yourself that way, everything — everything — changes.
Judge less
Another tool that helped me comes from The Inner Game of Tennis.
It says: don’t judge yourself. Observe yourself.
In sports, we’re always yelling at ourselves:
"Ugh, my swing sucks AGAIN! Why can’t I just fix it?!"
Instead, we need to detach from the ego and just observe, the way a parent watches a child learning to walk — no anger, no judgment, just patience and trust.
“The same detached interest is what it takes to let your game develop naturally. Remember that you are not your game. You are not your body. Trust your body's ability to learn and play, just as you would trust another person to do a job, and in a short time your body will perform well beyond your expectations.”
Now, I’m learning to “let it happen” too.
When my eyes are tired?
Okay, let's rest.
"But what about the deadlines?"
I don't know. We'll see.
And guess what? I still finished my work — without the crazy stress.
Turns out, it wasn’t the workload killing me.
It was the anxiety and attachment to my own expectations.
What can I do less of?
When I shifted into an abundant mindset, my thinking flipped.
Instead of “What can I do more of?”
I started asking, “What can I do less of?”
If I'm already enough —
If my skills are enough —
If my productivity is enough —
Why am I trying to prove anything?
How Abundance Changes Me
I realized: scarcity wasn’t even mine originally.
It came from the language people used with me.
They said:
"Fundraising is so hard. You need to work harder — this is our last shot!"
"You HAVE to take this interview — it’s your last chance!"
Before, I would’ve panicked. Now, I pause and ask: Wait, is that even true?
Does working harder really guarantee success?
Is this really my only opportunity?
Abundance mindset says no. None of it is true.There’s always more chances, more paths, more options.
When I felt abundant, I stopped clinging to outcomes. Instead of panicking over a single interview, I set up coffee chats — and discovered more people thought I was amazing.
At work, when asked about my progress, I stopped listing what I hadn’t finished. I started sharing how far I had come.
My friend screamed at me yesterday, “Esther, you just have to take a leap of faith. We don't need to be good — we just need to be stubborn. Why are you so afraid? You, of all people, should be the least afraid of technology. You are the only one who is limiting yourself."
On the surface, it might seem like I’m trying to balance work and life, finance and passion, confidence and humility. But really, I’m just creating a new version of myself. A new me.
And I’ll let it happen.