I’m pregnant?

Get new appetite

As you know, I’ve been so lost in my life. Since I don’t know what to do, or what I’m more interested in, I just did some random interviews when those opportunities dropped in front of the door. 

My rationale is, that if you don’t go through big tech, interviews are usually some indicators about the work and the people. Nowadays, I have a better sense of what kind of people I want to work with, but I still don’t know what work I will enjoy (process), potentially be great work (mission), and make money out of it (reality).

So my friend said, “Just apply whatever, and see if you like the challenges so you will know!” So I tried a lot of new things that I might be interested in and never try. 

I did lots of random things, front-end back-end, AI, and system design. And I realized I become pregnant. Do you know that pregnant women suddenly will have a new appetite and become addicted to some weird random food that they never liked in their lives? Yes, that’s me too. 

I started to feel addicted to algorithm problems and system design. My back neck feels itchy if I haven’t done one algorithm problem a day. And I don’t know why I keep watching system design videos even though I hated watching them before. It just feels like a dot of missing dots are finally getting connected together because now I understand the system. In Mandarin, we call it “defecating without a teacher” 無師自通, meaning that I am able to learn without a teacher.

What kind of child will I give birth to?