Try like a motherfucker

No more farting

We can fart lots of excuses

Someone who wants to write once told me, "I guess I want people to know me for my work first and then read my writing."

However, this implies that they are not truly committed to writing; they are more focused on pursuing that work. The truth is, when you become famous for something, everything that relates to you becomes invaluable. The books you read become popular, the restaurants you visit become ultra delicious, the writing you create becomes thought-provoking, and even your poop you poop become inspirational.

But if you really just want to try something for the sake of it, then pursue it like a motherfucker. Because no matter how talented we actually are or how good the environment we are in, we can always find an excuse not to try it.

Let's assume you're a depressed writer trying to write. That's a good start because good writers are usually depressed. However, if you're a really depressed writer, then you might say, "Yes, I'm a depressed writer, but there are so many other depressed writers on Earth!"

Damn, and we know you're in real depression.

So the lesson is, that we can always easily come up with lots of excuses to do things half-heartedly. So... screw it, whatever we want to try, try it like a motherfucker.

My internal conversation

For instance, it took me 3 months of daily writing and publishing to feel comfortable enough to write like a motherfucker to you today (See my posts: Overcome the Resistance to Write, Find Meanings to Continue Writing). However, even though I've tried to build software for half a year, I still encounter strong discomfort when I attempt to build. When I write, even if the writing looks like shit, at least I have something comprehensible. But with my code, if I can't get it right, nothing works, and the code just looks disappointingly smelly.

Now, as I want to try something related to learning x coding, I have so many internal conversations with myself.

I know I sound funny and stupid by just following my intuition to learn but don’t know what exactly I’m doing. However, most people don't even try because they are afraid of making something lame. We are too afraid of mistakes. But as Paul Graham has put it,

Imagine if we could turn off the fear of making something lame. Imagine how much more we'd do. — Early Work

I don’t know how much I can do, but I would love to try and see what’s coming out of it.

Try like a motherfucker

So if you want to learn a new language, speak like a motherfucker, and don't give a shit about how other people laugh at you or judge you. If you want to write, write like a motherfucker, no matter whether you produce poop or gold. If you want to build like a motherfucker, then build, even if the moment you finish and it collapses. On the way, we learn from experience, accumulate mistakes, and find that trace of curiosity for the next round.

Weirdo friends, you must think I'm so brave and strong to be this assertive. Not true at all! I'm still at the very beginning of this journey. And I'm also not pursuing it in an intense manner. I'm still a happy and healthy person. I just listen to my instinct and curiosity rather than "what I think I should do" or "what people think I should do." Now, I want to try solving whatever problems related to learning (I'm making up this topic as I write it XD). And I actually roll my eyes every day now when I'm building my Spanish AI tutor App because it’s so hard. However, I genuinely want to try, and I try it like a motherfucker.

As usual, feeling lost in life, but let's support each other on this "trying journey"?

Inspired by: Write like a motherfucker (So happy writing this post haha)