Relationship Simulation #2: "Move on" is a bullshit

Move on is just a choice, but I trust myself to make better choices

This is about the next level of evolution after my post on relationship simulation.

Terminology review

Relationship simulation: Relationship Simulation is a practice that allows Esther to simulate a situation in a romantic relationship. This helps her practice co-existing with all the feelings, desires, conflicts, and anxieties that come with being in a romantic relationship.

Today is my third week of training, and I have learned that striving to make the right decision is much more important than simply moving on. (New thoughts ⭐️)

To determine what the right decision is, we need to trace back to how I make decisions in my relationships. My first relationship was horrible because of the rebellion of my emotional self. I usually silenced her voice when making decisions until it exploded in rage. Back then, I also undervalued romantic relationships, which led me to poor decisions.

However, in my next relationship, I maximized the level of intentionality that I could ever have in my life. Almost every decision, such as dating, getting together, or breaking up, I powered with principles, or my town hall (a group of friends who vote for my love life) with careful consideration. In short, even though I may seem awkwardly serious, I am very proud of myself in this relationship.

Yes, even though I have lots of feelings, wants, and wishes during my relationship simulation, I keep wondering if I should be with my ex-partner in the future. I realized all those conflicting thoughts are because I'm confused. Will meeting them put me at greater risk? Do I want to let them go or do I still think it's good to keep them in my life?

All these questions aren't only about feelings; they are solid questions and choices. Moving on is just one of the choices. If someone's emotional self doesn't want to move on, you can suppress it, but it can bite you at some point.

I realize that I shouldn't worry about my ability to move on, because I make great decisions in my life, whether it's for my work or relationships. Whether I decide to meet my ex in the future or not, my future self will have the ability to make the right choice for me, even if I'm not able to do so now. If my future self decides to take the risk and meet, I will be able to consider my emotional self before deciding whether to open the door or not. Although my emotional self sometimes goes astray, I am learning how to harmonize it with my intentions.

In conclusion, "moving on" is just a silly social norm. As long as I know myself well and trust that I can make the right decision, I will do well in any situation. So, I have no worries about my future. 😉